It still hasn’t dawned on me that Marte and I are to become parents in not so long. I wonder if anyone is aware of that before the baby is born. On some occasions, for a few seconds, I am fully aware of that I’m to be a father. That’s usually when I panic and say “God! We need to get this and that, and we still haven’t done this and that!”. Like I said, it lasts only a few seconds, but it’s usually enough to freak me out a bit. :P
Marte has been reading like mad about parenting, what products to stay clear off, what kind of equipment we need to get hold of, that sort of thing. But I’ll tell you, there’s nothing that makes a woman glow more than when being pregnant. She keeps talking about Michael, keeps wondering how he will look, and how his personality will be with time. I myself am excited as well as concerned. I know nothing about parenting, but I hope that with time it will come to me. Just teach the child our values and leave him to decide things on his own as the years go by. I know I’m talking a bit ahead of myself but I can’t help it – I’m just happy about a child – our child, being born soon!
At least that is a breath of fresh air in my life. Things aren’t working out that well for me these days. I’m still having trouble with my social anxiety and depression, and without Marte I’d certainly be lost. So I try to do various things to keep my mind off things. Yesterday we fixed our garden a bit, and it was actually quite nice. Was planning on mowing the lawn today, but it started raining. That sort of sucks, as we have one of those lawnmowers that you sit on and steer. After cutting the grass I end up with a mini go cart-track, and have a bit of fun. :P
Books.. I just finished reading Dan Brown’s Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Deception Point, and Digital Fortress. No clue what else to read now. I was thinking of reading Robert Jordan’s Wheel of Time-series again, but that bugger just never stops writing books. If there’s one thing I hate, it’s reading an unfinished series. Supposedly his next and final book is going to be published in 2009 at some point, but bleh, who knows. I guess I could read David Eddings’ The Malloreon, but I just need the money to buy the books first.
I’d like to get well soon. I’m hoping to get well soon.
