I apologise for not having posted any replies to any of the comments being given on this site for the past week. Friday last week my son was rushed to the hospital because the doctor found out during the last minute that the infection to his eye was more serious than first imagined. We were there for a week, and came home just yesterday. Luckily they managed to save his eyesight, but it will be greatly reduced on his left eye. I can’t stop feeling guilt.. what if we had done things differently? Would things still have ended up like this? It was incredibly hard to hear the doctors say that my son will never be able to see things as normal with his left eye. It is now currently covered by some white substance, covering the pupil, and we have no idea about how long it will take before it disappears.
The people I’ve talked to have told me that though things are difficult, that I should be grateful that it didn’t turn out more serious, even if the incident is very serious in itself. But how can I not feel a sense of hopelessness and defeat when I know that my little boy might never set his two blue eyes on me again? The doctors suspect the white spot might fade with time, but they give me no estimate or guarantee that it will happen. Not a minute goes by without me thinking “What if I had done things differently?”, which is why this post is named Think Twice. Think twice before doing anything, or not doing anything. Not sitting down at that very moment to play with your child, because something else seems more important at the moment. Not picking your child up when he stretches his arms towards you. Not sitting your child on your lap when it so clearly wants to. You might regret it, for whatever reason. God knows I do.
